The first day is always the hardest… once you pass those 24 hours, you will slowly start to feel better… I can’t promise you that, but there is hope… Silence speaks louder than words, remember that. And remember that if someone loves you as much as you thought they did, they would do anything to be with you… and they would not be able to bare being with anyone else, because it would just feel wrong… even if that is the way they cope with things. If he is really doing that, HE WAS NOT MEANT FOR YOU, YOU DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER.
YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON, YOU HAVE AN AMAZING HEART AND SOUL… YOU WILL BE OK. Don’t forget everything you have ever believed in:
What is mean to be will be
God never gives you more than you can handle
Everything happens for a reason
You are STRONG enough… you have strong beliefs. You have hope and faith in God and that things will be OK. Do what you need to do to move on… if you see him, you don’t have to talk to him… there is no such thing is courtesy towards the bastard who blatantly tells you he loves you, but he has to create space because you can’t be together, so he will be going out with girls… he IS a single guy you know, after all, and it’s not like he will sit at home on his ass!!!!!!
MY REPLY:
FUCK HIM! THAT BASTARD! THAT LYING ASS HOLE WHO ONLY THINKS WITH HIS DICK… FUCK HIM, HE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS! I HOPE HE IS MISERABLE FOREVER, AND I HOPE HE IS HURTING SO MUCH, AND I HOPE HE WILL NEVER EVER GET OVER THIS AND THAT HE WILL NEVER END UP WITH ANYONE, AND THAT IF HE DOES, I HOPE HIS LIFE IS MISERABLE AND SHE DRIVES HIM UP THE WALL AND SPENDS ALL HIS MONEY AND CHEATS ON HIM AND GIVES HIM AN STD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HOPE HE ONE DAY FEELS THE PAIN WHICH I COULD NEVER IMAGE FEELING… I NEVER THOUGH MY ACTUAL SOUL CAN SHATTER AND HURT THIS MUCH… I AM SO DONE WASTING MY ENERGY ON HIM. WHAT WE HAD WAS A FUCKING ILLUSION, A DREAM THAT LASTED 8 MONTHS AND THEN I WOKE UP TO FUCKING REALITY. FUCK HIM. FUCK HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I REFUSE TO SHED ANY MORE TEARS FOR HIM, IF I HAVE TO BOTTLE IT UP DEEP INSIDE AND EXPLODE. I AM DONE. I AM SO DONE. I AM SICK AND TIRED…. I AM SO STUPID TO KEEP OPENING MY HEART AND MY SOUL TO LOVE, AND COMPLETELY TRUST AND GIVE IN TO IT. EVERY TIME I GET FUCKING HURT, AND I NEVER LEARN. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS TRUE LOVE… TRUE LOVE WOULD NEVER STAB YOU IN THE BACK AND HURT YOU ON PURPOSE LIKE THIS… TRUE LOVE WOULD NOT MAKE IT POSSIBLE TO BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE WHEN YOU SUPPOSEDLY LOVE SOMEONE. TRUE LOVE WOULD NOT MAKE YOU GIVE UP ON FINDING SOLUTIONS, AND ON DECIDING ON THINGS JUST BY YOURSELF.
I AM DONE. I AM SO FUCKING DONE. I HATE YOU. I DESPISE YOU. MAY YOU ROT IN YOUR OWN FILTHY LIES, AND MAY YOUR HEART AND SOUL BREAK INTO A TRILLION PIECES WHICH CAN NEVER BE REPAIRED. MAY YOU REMAIN A BROKEN PERSON. MAY YOU NEVER SEE LIFE OR ENJOY IT THE WAY YOU USED TO.
I HATE THAT YOU HAVE DONE THIS TO ME, AND IN THIS WAY… I DON’T DESERVE THIS. FUCK YOU. YOU ARE A MOTHER FUCKING ASSHOLE. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU. EVER.
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