I thought he had made up his mind… that this was a done deal… but I can see the internal struggles he is going through… I’ve seen him over the last 2 days, both of us crying in each others’ arms… sharing, fearing… and today, he asked for 2 days to himself, he needs to think, seek advice and finally make a decision about us, and about his life…
I’m trying not to be too optimistic, but this has to be positive… to have reached this stage. All his messages today read “my focus is us”… “you are the most important person to me, no one else matters”…
And most confusing was the first email today, saying he had 2 questions for me… the first was whatever… the second he said he can’t ask unless he is sure… and BAM hope is reborn… I hope not to be killed again… I asked him, sure of what? He said, sure of his decision because he can’t sit on the fence anymore, his life needs to take a direction.
Please… pray for me… I really love this man and I know we would be so very happy together…
I’m praying for you. I’ve been following your blog and know you have not had a lot of luck in love. I’ve told you before our lives are following very similar paths and sometimes it’s like reading something out of my own life. I recently broke up with somebody and he too asked me for time, 1 month. It was excrutiating! it was very painful and at the end he didn’t choose me so now I’m alone again. I wish you luck and all the best, I hope it works out for you. Good Luck!
Thank you GG… Yes, I’ve had bad luck, but this is the worst. I never imaged this relationship to end up this way… couldn’t ever imagine to meet someone like him, who brought out the best of me and more, who made me a much better person, and who loves me so much and takes care of me… is patient and kind, fun and serious… we fit so perfectly.
I’m sorry that your relationship didn’t work out… what was the issue that he had to think about? Please feel free to share… I didn’t think sharing these thoughts out there would make me feel better, but receiving such comments really makes me feel good that someone is listening and hearing me… and feeling with me. Was he your one?
The next 2 days are going to be the longest ever in my life…
The question he asks maybe will you leave with him. So you need to think too.
In my husband’s country, about 50% Muslim and 50% Christian, they recognise four different types of marriage – so that gets confusing.
Star Crossed Lovers – I don’t know if you have ever heard the song, but it reminds me of your situation.
As you know, I am an atheist – but aside from that it is a fact that religions are simply a man made madness. And that is all religions. If God does exist, my impression of him is that he would not be happy with the way humankind has manipulated generations of people in his name through religions of various guises.
Not that that observation helps you at all, I know.
Yes, writing here can be very theraputic – I do it for the same reason. Just a different cause to my stress.
I so wish everything will be resolved for you!